Change in Format

With the intent to make the data here more informative, I've revised how it is being presented. The table for January shows the grand total "points" accumulated in each category for the month indicated. (All numbers are standardized into 30-Day Months and, except for Xanax, rounded off to the nearest whole number). The table shows the two preceding months as well, to help show whether things are improving or worsening over the most recent three-month period. Also shown is the same month from a year ago, and two years ago, to show how I was doing at that time of year in previous years.

You will also find a table of "Seasonal Averages." This table contains monthly averages for each season of the year. This can be used to compare different seasons, as well as to gauge the present month in terms of my seasonal averages.

As a reminder, the lower the number, the better - in all cases except for the "Joy Etc" column.

January 2006 Stats

	Jan 2006	Dec 2005	Nov 2005	Jan 2005	Jan 2004
Overall	143	212	163	102	29
Joy Etc.	129	98	130	159	214
Self-Harm	79	151	98	79	7
Suicidal Days	16	22	18	2	2
Xanax Used (mg)	16.9	26.1	15.5	5.3	1.9

Best & Worst Months

This table indicates the range of "scores" in each category between April 1, 2003 and January 31, 2006. Rather than listing average scores, I feel the median is more informative.

[FYI: the "median" is the number halfway down a list when data are ranked in numerical order - or, to put it anther way, the median divides the data such that half of the months rank higher than the median, and half the months rank lower than the median. As an example of how the "average" can be misleading would be seen in my Xanax figures: my average usage is 7.5mg per month, but the vast majority of months I use less. A small handful of months of high usage can really skew the average. In this chart, the closer the median is to the "best" score, the better.]

	Overall (points)	Joy Etc(points)	Self-Harm (points)	Suidical Days	Xanax (mg)
Best	10 Feb 04	230 Feb 04	0 6 times	0 6 times	0 Oct 05
Median	86	172	27	6	2.0
Worst	213 May 05	98 Dec 05	177 May 05	25 May 05	26.1 Dec 05

Record Bests - 2006

The following table shows the longest stretches of consecutive days without suicidal thoughts so far during the calendar year 2006.
(Last Updated: 06-01-06)

Rank	# of Days	Dates
1	6	05/26/06 - present
2	6	05/09/06 - 05/14/06
3	6	04/07/06 - 04/12/06
4	6	03/12/06 - 03/17/06
5	5	04/26/06 - 04/30/06
6	5	02/06/06 - 02/10/06
7	5	01/08/06 - 01/12/06
8	4	05/19/06 - 02/22/06
9	4	02/19/06 - 02/22/06
10	3	01/14/06 - 01/16/06

Record Bests - 2005

The following table shows the longest stretches of consecutive days without suicidal thoughts during the calendar year 2005.

Rank	# of Days	Dates
1	33	10/01/05 - 11/02/05
2	24	01/16/05 - 02/08/05
3	13	01/02/05 - 01/14/05
4	13	02/23/05 - 03/07/05
5	10	03/16/05 - 03/25/05
6	10	11/25/05 - 12/04/05
7	7	07/29/05 - 08/04/05
8	6	02/10/05 - 02/15/05

Record Bests - 2004

The following table shows the longest stretches of consecutive days without suicidal thoughts during the calendar year 2004.

Rank	# of Days	Dates
1	88	03/15/04 - 06/10/04
2	53	10/15/04 - 12/06/04
3	41	12/19/03 - 01/28/04
4	30	02/08/04 - 03/08/04
5	17	08/24/04 - 09/09/04
6	14	12/17/04 - 12/30/04
7	11	06/17/04 - 06/27/04
8	10	09/25/04 - 10/04/04

Record Bests - 2003

The following table shows the longest stretches of consecutive days without suicidal thoughts during the calendar year 2003.

Rank	# of Days	Dates
1	97	08/02/03 - 11/06/03
2	41	12/19/03 - 01/28/04
3	25	06/14/03 - 07/08/03
4	18	04/18/03 - 05/05/03
5	13	12/05/03 - 12/17/03
6	11	11/20/03 - 11/30/03
7	10	03/29/03 - 04/07/03

Record Bests Since 01/01/03

The following table shows the longest stretches of consecutive days without suicidal thoughts, since January 1, 2003.

Rank	# of Days	Dates
1	97	08/02/03 - 11/06/03
2	88	03/15/04 - 06/10/04
3	53	10/15/04 - 12/06/04
4	41	12/19/03 - 01/28/04
5	33	10/01/05 - 11/02/05
6	30	02/08/04 - 03/08/04
7	25	06/14/03 - 07/08/03
8	24	01/16/05 - 02/08/05
9	18	04/18/03 - 05/05/03
10	17	08/24/04 - 09/09/04
11	14	12/17/04 - 12/30/04
12	13	12/05/03 - 12/17/03
13	13	01/02/05 - 01/14/05
14	13	02/23/05 - 03/07/05
15	11	11/20/03 - 11/30/03
16	11	06/17/04 - 06/27/04
17	10	03/29/03 - 04/07/03
18	10	09/25/04 - 10/04/04
19	10	03/16/05 - 03/25/05
20	10	11/25/05 - 12/04/05

Seasonal Averages

The following table shows the average monthly totals during each season of the year, based on data collected from April 1, 2003 to January 31, 2006.

	Winter	Spring	Summer	Fall
Overall	89	82	96	77
Joy Etc.	164	183	157	173
Self-Harm	36	39	54	31
Suicidal Days	7	9	12	6
Xanax Used (mg)	7.5	6.3	9.5	6.5